When you are triggered, it's your chance to heal old wounds.

Whenever I get triggered, I dig deeper inwards.

Why do I feel that way?　Why am I so upset?　Where is this coming from? What is the root cause of this?

Recently, I was so shaken because the governor of California placed a mandate order for Corona vaccination for children over the age of 12 in order to attend school.

I was very upset over the order.

I believe in freedom, the freedom of the decision making.

Medical freedom of our own body.

My belief is that it's up to each individual to decide whether to get the vaccine or not.

But why was I so upset? I wondered why my I was so shaken. I thought about it , and I realized that I have huge problem with things getting decided for me without my own will or insight. It's very hard for me to accept it.

Then I understood where is all coming from. It goes all the way back to when I was an infant.

When I was six months old, I was left with my maternal aunt when my mom went to the hospital for terminal cancer treatment (Thankfully, she beat the cancer).

I was only six months old. I was the only one separated from the rest of the family.

Theoretically speaking. I had no choice.

I also feel for my aunt who took me in. It must have been hard for her taking care of a new born baby while taking care of her own small daughter knowing her big sister is fighting for her life.

So, I just had to accept it. I had no choice. It wasn't up to me. Since I was a baby, I couldn't have spoken up to tell what I wanted. I had to accept it as it is.

So, until now looking back the situation, I always told myself. "It's nobody's fault. It's not anyone's fault. The adults did the best they can ."

I burred my sorrow and ignored it for long time.

I have noticed though if you haven't healed the underlying trauma, it will pop up in various situations.

Situations might be different, but the core issue is the same.

I started to ask a question to myself when I'm frustrated, sad, upset, or feeling lonely, what is the root cause of this?

Once you know the cause, you can start healing that part of yourself.I use muscle testing when I get triggered to pinpoint my feeling, cause etc then I share my finding with my husband.

I also I do Integrated Healing with my emotions to clear it and heal from the root cause.

Getting triggered or emotionally shaken is not always bad. I believe it is the perfect time to start looking within. Be in touch with your self. It's your unconscious telling you it's time to heal yourself and become your true self. What's bothering you right now? Are you ready to heal those wounds?